CORRECT LYRICS
Lyrics : Dear Alcohol (Mega Remix)
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Ain't gotta turn on the lights, I take a shot in the dark
Goin' round after round to fill this hole in my heart
And I got nowhere to go, when it all falls down
Got nowhere to run, when it all runs out
Drownin' my sorrows with bottles
Too intoxicated for me to take the high road
Since the Whiskey came, I done lost my way
Lost myself in a drink
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I can never evеr live without it
The numbness and thе pause that I get from it
I can never fall asleep with all that venisive
So many troubles and so much pain, I can't deal with it
I keep on drinking, [?]
Depression [?]
I don't wanna deal with myself
I got wasted
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I'm pa**ed out and it's like I'm in a war
Life is pa**ing while I'm wasted on the floor
See I've been drowning in a life without no pa**ion
Coping with this drink and I know it's tragic
I wanna feel real life
I want some real kisses, feel the real touch
Find a real Mrs. 'til the fog is gone
With God as my witness, I'ma sober up
I'ma sober up
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright (Oh-woah)
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
(I'm five years sober so this comes from a really raw place, I hope this reaches someone that needs to here it - you're not alone)
I got wasted
You ever look back to a certain time and try to reminisce
And all you get is little flashes, a piece of the past
And as each year pa** you start to realize that the only thing that last is the bottom of a gla**
And your friendships' plastic
Oh well, that sh*t happens
But what about when you can't even make it through the day
And your hands start shaking, your girlfriend left
And your parents pray for your safety
Not just pray, but the type that would make even atheists' feel like it's something to faith
'Cause maybe only God knows what it takes
Maybe only I know how to break it
But I can't 'cause I'm caged in the shell of a man right now
I don't really wanna hear it
Hurt the people that are dearest
And it took my soul, that's why they call it Spirits
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
At fourteen I had my first OJ and Vodka and thought I was so G
But that quickly turned into poppin' these pills and mixing my drink with the codeine
But then I OD'd
I should've listened when they told me
Now when I drink, I get to sendin' you these messages just 'cause I'm lonely
And it ain't 'cause I'm wasted
It's because I'm lost
I need you to call
And I don't know no other way to take away the pain
I'm 'bout to fall
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize (Yeah)
I got wasted (Woah, ayy)
And I'm taken by the drink and the ball too
Girl, I love the people tryna keep me off my vibe too
I ain't got a tattoo, but I wish I got two
Smuggle money out of a van, what about you?
And I'm talking 'bout the drink and the liquor
Tryna put my brain in a game damn figure
All I do is drink and drink and drink and think
Take like three, four, five in a day, ayy
I got a lot of problems, family problems, relationship problems
All I gotta do is just solve 'em
Everybody tryna get me all f**ked up
Tryna do no drugs, so I fill my cup with the Hennessey
Put me on top, leave me up like I'm faraway
Call me on phone when I'm far away
Yeah, I'm runnin' from my problems
But I know one day I'll stop
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
It's a quick high, then a long low
And you call me tryna come home
But I can't be your only remedy
Tryna save you is gonna kill me
So write it down, put it in a song
Hope you pour it out
We'd all feel less alone
'Stead of getting wasted, waste your time making something real
You can turn your wasted to power, helping other people heal
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight (Yeah, mmm)
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright (Oh-oh, mmm)
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I got wasted, shot, then I chased it
Wanted a taste, now it's my night that I'm wastin'
It's been happenin' more and more
Start with one and then I'm pourin' four
Now I'm stumblin' through the corridor
Crying out for anything except a level head
I've been fighting all these demons but the spirits put 'em right to bed
I know they'll find me when I feel the hangover
'Cause they don't hate the man I am until he's sober
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight (Oh)
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Just one more shot of whiskey then I'll put the bottle down
The warmth that it provides me is the best thing that I have found
And I know that it can't kill me 'cause I'm already dead
And I would do anything to drown these thoughts inside my head
I'm messed up, f**ked up, and I only disappoint
My mental health doesn't give me much a choice
Drunk in the crowds, getting lost in all the noise
If someone screams and no one hears, do they even have a voice?
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I spent half my life drinkin', other half over-thinkin
Blame it on a disposition and a family full of addiction
Some say it's already written
I guess the first step is admittin'
It's hard being sober and dealing with feelings but I ain't a quitter
I don't plan on quitting, yeah!
Half a bottle got me catching waves
Bring the loud, we gone cross fade
Used to buy into being an addict
Until I learned another way
I've been finding my balance
Lettin' go of my malice
Here's a toast to the challenge, yeah
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Since you've been gone I've been sippin' into my sorrows
One last bottle then tomorrow I'll be sober, but I
I can't escape this hole that I've been diggin' in
All my demons fighting wars that I can't really win
I bite my tongue and hit the wall until I bleed
Trapped in my thoughts until it's hard for me to breathe
And I know it's hard for you to see but this liquor's got a hold on me
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Look
I'm at the bottom of the bottle again
I be living through a life with a whole lot of sin
And I know I got a problem, I don't try to pretend
I be kicking it with Jack when I don't got a friend
I get wasted
Sippin' a beer, that's how I chase it
Go to the store and cop cases
When I get drunk, I do not pace it
I done blacked out on so many occasions
Even though it never feels good on the next day
I'ma still look forward to the next taste
Turning to the bottle when I really need to escape
Even thought I know it's probably leading to my death day
It's a vicious cycle that is genocidal
And it's taken friends and taken many idols
And I know that I really must stop if I wanna see the day that I'm sitting on top
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Had to quit sippin' and get to the money
I'd rather be rich than be numb to the pain
Issues within me, I think no one love me
You tell me it's only inside of my brain
Lie to myself then I try to explain
Drink to forget and get high to maintain
If I quit for good and I try to refrain
Then I gotta admit that I'm drowning in pain
And I don't wanna face it, rather pour up and get wasted
Straight 'cause I'm trying to taste it
All of my problems would probably get better with time
But I'd rather be drunk than be patient
Why would I chase it?
Love how it hit when I face it
That bottle takes me to places I need to be when I'm deep in my feelings
I feel like I'm trapped so I sip to escape it, yeah
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I told myself I will never ever drink like this again
It's 5 o'clock on the dot, the liquors pulling me in
I'm one more drink from blacking out so I'ma try to pretend
Like I'm not feeling a buzz but damn I'm wasted
The only time I feel alive is when I'm lit as a b*t*h
I said only one sip but now I'm faded
I wouldn't be in this position always feeling like sh*t
But when the alcohol hits it feels amazing
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Another bottle to the face
The liquor numbs what I think
Drowning in it but nobody see it
I'm invisible, I'm gonna sink down
Used to it, I don't know who to call
People care so they ain't viewed to have flaws
Running from myself but how can nobody see it?
What if the world cut my lights out?
Who would show up to my funeral?
What would it mean?
If everyone's crying out
Praying that I'll be at peace in a place they can't see
They'll know me as the quiet one
But time spent on this Earth ain't true to what I wanted
I wish it was all in my head, but
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Kickin' myself, got wasted again
Up all night with Jack and Jim
Tryna drown the thoughts running through my mind
Sippin' heartbreak chase with moonshine
Unholster Glock laid on the table
Day by day closer to fatal
This open Bible ain't savin' me
When it's covered all in this Hennessey
But I pick myself back up
Prayed to God, no more liquor in my cup
Hell and back, put me out the flames
Lord on my side, breakin' these chains
See, I never cared what people think
Take my demons pour 'em down the sink
How I see things now, it ain't the same
I'm back on track, you gon' know my name
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
You're runnin', get high
I do this every time
Don't know where else to go
So I drown my pain and ease my pride
Sittin' on that bathroom floor way too many times
Contemplating 'bout my life, 13 Reasons Why, oh why
(Why) did you have to leave?
You were apart of me
Now our dreams are great
But they can't see that side of me
Nothing left to do
But love for you
So I pour this liquor and I take a shot for you
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted (Oh)
Every time I look in the mirror, all I see, ohh
There's somebody just wondering why they always leave, ooooh Instead of dealing with it and feeling it
I tell myself I don't need someone
When it's all that I need
Oh, deep down I'm so lonely
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Another generation down like bleach to a family tree
She's tellin' me to pour it out, stop drowning in fermented company
I got a lushes trauma, enrich myself
Stop this tainted sweat from trickling down
I gotta toss away the same sh*t hell
And keep it far away from my dear child
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted (Look)
I think I lost my composure
I think a lot when I'm sober
I try to run away from my thoughts but I still let the bottle get closer
So I drink every night 'til the morning, I'm hoping the gla** will provide me some closure
And I don't want breakfast so I'll leave the apple and just take a shot on the go
And a couple more 'cause I need that
Told my whole family I'm a clean man
So they could stop stressin' and worryin' 'bout me even though I know that I relapsed
And I'm tired of the lies now
I need full support and I mean that, so I'm gone now
See you all after rehab 'cause
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Got tired of thinkin' so I start drinkin' 'til I was fully loaded and bloated
My words misquoted
I'm wasted and I know it
Inebriation begets alleviation which causes deviation
I'm pacin' with no patients I'm 'bout to blow it
ain't pretty so I crack down
I pick up another drink, put it back down
Started drinkin' everything and I'm thinkin' overdrinkin'
I'm way to far to let down
No I can't do this on my own so I come to you 'cause you all got alone
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I got wasted 'cause these feelin's that I got hurt like hell tonight
Got me caught up can't stop thinkin' about a paradise
I can't find it, and everybody around me seems to be survivin'
But I, I can't forget the pain that I caused
I try to follow my heart than I fall down
I'm hangin' out with all these bottles now so
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I'll keep drinkin' 'til I can't find myself
I'm way too wasted couldn't even find my way back home
I couldn't find my way back home
But I can't find it, I'm drownin' in my thoughts
It just keeps comin' back and I don't know if I'll ever get away
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I've been drinkin', I've been thinkin' 'bout the past
Whiskey on the rocks, don't know where to put my lovin'
Got a mask on thinkin' 'bout the future 'bout to beg God
Know that I be livin' so brash
How to heal my pain even with the lack of focus
This anxiety made me the coldest
And not on purpose
I'm an over-thinker when I'm hurtin'
My depression [?]
Bullet holes in my headspace
Kill the ego and my view perfect
Sippin', sippin' on this bourbon
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Guitar Solo
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I got wasted
Ain't gotta turn on the lights, I take a shot in the dark
Goin' round after round to fill this hole in my heart
And I got nowhere to go, when it all falls down
Got nowhere to run, when it all runs out
Drownin' my sorrows with bottles
Too intoxicated for me to take the high road
Since the Whiskey came, I done lost my way
Lost myself in a drink
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I can never evеr live without it
The numbness and thе pause that I get from it
I can never fall asleep with all that venisive
So many troubles and so much pain, I can't deal with it
I keep on drinking, [?]
Depression [?]
I don't wanna deal with myself
I got wasted
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I'm pa**ed out and it's like I'm in a war
Life is pa**ing while I'm wasted on the floor
See I've been drowning in a life without no pa**ion
Coping with this drink and I know it's tragic
I wanna feel real life
I want some real kisses, feel the real touch
Find a real Mrs. 'til the fog is gone
With God as my witness, I'ma sober up
I'ma sober up
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright (Oh-woah)
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
(I'm five years sober so this comes from a really raw place, I hope this reaches someone that needs to here it - you're not alone)
I got wasted
You ever look back to a certain time and try to reminisce
And all you get is little flashes, a piece of the past
And as each year pa** you start to realize that the only thing that last is the bottom of a gla**
And your friendships' plastic
Oh well, that sh*t happens
But what about when you can't even make it through the day
And your hands start shaking, your girlfriend left
And your parents pray for your safety
Not just pray, but the type that would make even atheists' feel like it's something to faith
'Cause maybe only God knows what it takes
Maybe only I know how to break it
But I can't 'cause I'm caged in the shell of a man right now
I don't really wanna hear it
Hurt the people that are dearest
And it took my soul, that's why they call it Spirits
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
At fourteen I had my first OJ and Vodka and thought I was so G
But that quickly turned into poppin' these pills and mixing my drink with the codeine
But then I OD'd
I should've listened when they told me
Now when I drink, I get to sendin' you these messages just 'cause I'm lonely
And it ain't 'cause I'm wasted
It's because I'm lost
I need you to call
And I don't know no other way to take away the pain
I'm 'bout to fall
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize (Yeah)
I got wasted (Woah, ayy)
And I'm taken by the drink and the ball too
Girl, I love the people tryna keep me off my vibe too
I ain't got a tattoo, but I wish I got two
Smuggle money out of a van, what about you?
And I'm talking 'bout the drink and the liquor
Tryna put my brain in a game damn figure
All I do is drink and drink and drink and think
Take like three, four, five in a day, ayy
I got a lot of problems, family problems, relationship problems
All I gotta do is just solve 'em
Everybody tryna get me all f**ked up
Tryna do no drugs, so I fill my cup with the Hennessey
Put me on top, leave me up like I'm faraway
Call me on phone when I'm far away
Yeah, I'm runnin' from my problems
But I know one day I'll stop
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
It's a quick high, then a long low
And you call me tryna come home
But I can't be your only remedy
Tryna save you is gonna kill me
So write it down, put it in a song
Hope you pour it out
We'd all feel less alone
'Stead of getting wasted, waste your time making something real
You can turn your wasted to power, helping other people heal
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight (Yeah, mmm)
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright (Oh-oh, mmm)
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I got wasted, shot, then I chased it
Wanted a taste, now it's my night that I'm wastin'
It's been happenin' more and more
Start with one and then I'm pourin' four
Now I'm stumblin' through the corridor
Crying out for anything except a level head
I've been fighting all these demons but the spirits put 'em right to bed
I know they'll find me when I feel the hangover
'Cause they don't hate the man I am until he's sober
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight (Oh)
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Just one more shot of whiskey then I'll put the bottle down
The warmth that it provides me is the best thing that I have found
And I know that it can't kill me 'cause I'm already dead
And I would do anything to drown these thoughts inside my head
I'm messed up, f**ked up, and I only disappoint
My mental health doesn't give me much a choice
Drunk in the crowds, getting lost in all the noise
If someone screams and no one hears, do they even have a voice?
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I spent half my life drinkin', other half over-thinkin
Blame it on a disposition and a family full of addiction
Some say it's already written
I guess the first step is admittin'
It's hard being sober and dealing with feelings but I ain't a quitter
I don't plan on quitting, yeah!
Half a bottle got me catching waves
Bring the loud, we gone cross fade
Used to buy into being an addict
Until I learned another way
I've been finding my balance
Lettin' go of my malice
Here's a toast to the challenge, yeah
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Since you've been gone I've been sippin' into my sorrows
One last bottle then tomorrow I'll be sober, but I
I can't escape this hole that I've been diggin' in
All my demons fighting wars that I can't really win
I bite my tongue and hit the wall until I bleed
Trapped in my thoughts until it's hard for me to breathe
And I know it's hard for you to see but this liquor's got a hold on me
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Look
I'm at the bottom of the bottle again
I be living through a life with a whole lot of sin
And I know I got a problem, I don't try to pretend
I be kicking it with Jack when I don't got a friend
I get wasted
Sippin' a beer, that's how I chase it
Go to the store and cop cases
When I get drunk, I do not pace it
I done blacked out on so many occasions
Even though it never feels good on the next day
I'ma still look forward to the next taste
Turning to the bottle when I really need to escape
Even thought I know it's probably leading to my death day
It's a vicious cycle that is genocidal
And it's taken friends and taken many idols
And I know that I really must stop if I wanna see the day that I'm sitting on top
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Had to quit sippin' and get to the money
I'd rather be rich than be numb to the pain
Issues within me, I think no one love me
You tell me it's only inside of my brain
Lie to myself then I try to explain
Drink to forget and get high to maintain
If I quit for good and I try to refrain
Then I gotta admit that I'm drowning in pain
And I don't wanna face it, rather pour up and get wasted
Straight 'cause I'm trying to taste it
All of my problems would probably get better with time
But I'd rather be drunk than be patient
Why would I chase it?
Love how it hit when I face it
That bottle takes me to places I need to be when I'm deep in my feelings
I feel like I'm trapped so I sip to escape it, yeah
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I told myself I will never ever drink like this again
It's 5 o'clock on the dot, the liquors pulling me in
I'm one more drink from blacking out so I'ma try to pretend
Like I'm not feeling a buzz but damn I'm wasted
The only time I feel alive is when I'm lit as a b*t*h
I said only one sip but now I'm faded
I wouldn't be in this position always feeling like sh*t
But when the alcohol hits it feels amazing
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Another bottle to the face
The liquor numbs what I think
Drowning in it but nobody see it
I'm invisible, I'm gonna sink down
Used to it, I don't know who to call
People care so they ain't viewed to have flaws
Running from myself but how can nobody see it?
What if the world cut my lights out?
Who would show up to my funeral?
What would it mean?
If everyone's crying out
Praying that I'll be at peace in a place they can't see
They'll know me as the quiet one
But time spent on this Earth ain't true to what I wanted
I wish it was all in my head, but
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Kickin' myself, got wasted again
Up all night with Jack and Jim
Tryna drown the thoughts running through my mind
Sippin' heartbreak chase with moonshine
Unholster Glock laid on the table
Day by day closer to fatal
This open Bible ain't savin' me
When it's covered all in this Hennessey
But I pick myself back up
Prayed to God, no more liquor in my cup
Hell and back, put me out the flames
Lord on my side, breakin' these chains
See, I never cared what people think
Take my demons pour 'em down the sink
How I see things now, it ain't the same
I'm back on track, you gon' know my name
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
You're runnin', get high
I do this every time
Don't know where else to go
So I drown my pain and ease my pride
Sittin' on that bathroom floor way too many times
Contemplating 'bout my life, 13 Reasons Why, oh why
(Why) did you have to leave?
You were apart of me
Now our dreams are great
But they can't see that side of me
Nothing left to do
But love for you
So I pour this liquor and I take a shot for you
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted (Oh)
Every time I look in the mirror, all I see, ohh
There's somebody just wondering why they always leave, ooooh Instead of dealing with it and feeling it
I tell myself I don't need someone
When it's all that I need
Oh, deep down I'm so lonely
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Another generation down like bleach to a family tree
She's tellin' me to pour it out, stop drowning in fermented company
I got a lushes trauma, enrich myself
Stop this tainted sweat from trickling down
I gotta toss away the same sh*t hell
And keep it far away from my dear child
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted (Look)
I think I lost my composure
I think a lot when I'm sober
I try to run away from my thoughts but I still let the bottle get closer
So I drink every night 'til the morning, I'm hoping the gla** will provide me some closure
And I don't want breakfast so I'll leave the apple and just take a shot on the go
And a couple more 'cause I need that
Told my whole family I'm a clean man
So they could stop stressin' and worryin' 'bout me even though I know that I relapsed
And I'm tired of the lies now
I need full support and I mean that, so I'm gone now
See you all after rehab 'cause
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Got tired of thinkin' so I start drinkin' 'til I was fully loaded and bloated
My words misquoted
I'm wasted and I know it
Inebriation begets alleviation which causes deviation
I'm pacin' with no patients I'm 'bout to blow it
ain't pretty so I crack down
I pick up another drink, put it back down
Started drinkin' everything and I'm thinkin' overdrinkin'
I'm way to far to let down
No I can't do this on my own so I come to you 'cause you all got alone
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I got wasted 'cause these feelin's that I got hurt like hell tonight
Got me caught up can't stop thinkin' about a paradise
I can't find it, and everybody around me seems to be survivin'
But I, I can't forget the pain that I caused
I try to follow my heart than I fall down
I'm hangin' out with all these bottles now so
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I'll keep drinkin' 'til I can't find myself
I'm way too wasted couldn't even find my way back home
I couldn't find my way back home
But I can't find it, I'm drownin' in my thoughts
It just keeps comin' back and I don't know if I'll ever get away
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I've been drinkin', I've been thinkin' 'bout the past
Whiskey on the rocks, don't know where to put my lovin'
Got a mask on thinkin' 'bout the future 'bout to beg God
Know that I be livin' so brash
How to heal my pain even with the lack of focus
This anxiety made me the coldest
And not on purpose
I'm an over-thinker when I'm hurtin'
My depression [?]
Bullet holes in my headspace
Kill the ego and my view perfect
Sippin', sippin' on this bourbon
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
Guitar Solo
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
