Lyrics : ​hahah oops im falling apart

I can't sleep
But the bottle helps me rest in peace
I can't think
But the pills help me forget the memories
But I still can't forget you
And I still f**kin' let you, keep me awake
Screamin' in a pillow
Only helps a lil in moments of ease
In the 23 hours of pain
The only thing that makes it go away
Is givin' into the urges
That never gives only take

So watch me walk down the road
I said I'd never step on
Watch me fall apart from the man I was
To who I never wanted to become