CORRECT LYRICS

Lyrics : Journalentry01/07/21

I just wanna know if its always gonna end in this way
Where i think back on my life and how i think it could change
And i dont think about time because i think of my age
Where i been chasing my dream but i got nothing to say

I get carried away
With the thoughts that i have
And if i push you away
Well just know that its that
That i feel that ive been pushed
By people staring at me
And i dont know if you know
How that all feels to me

Cus i
Wanted peace from all the pain
That i felt throughout my life
Undiagnosed but yet
I knew that something wasn't right

So i had me a couple of shots
And i had me a couple of pills
And i went to the bathtub
To try to see the other side

I just wanted to feel nothing back then
But now i feel too much the way i exist
I lived in my head without a single friend
And now i feel lonely but not all that bad

I just wanna know if its always gonna end in this way
Where i think back on my life and how i think it could change
And i dont think about time because i think of my age
Where i been chasing my dream but i got nothing to say

(im not f**king done yet)

I miss my mom and my dad
I miss my brother the most
I wish that i had the love
I used to feel at home
I wish that i knew a way
I wish that i had a plan
I wish that i could be happy
With the way that i am

I wasted seven years of my own life cus i felt that i always
Had to do what i was told but never really thought of me
If i had it on my terms, i wouldn't make an enemy
But wanna say f**k you to all the friends that never cared for me