CORRECT LYRICS
Lyrics : IDEAS ARE BULLETPROOF!
Part I: I NEED JESUS!
Yo', [?]
from around the world California dreamin'
I wanna see everybody jumpin' and screamin'
I wanna see everybody jumpin' and screamin'
Paint my head with his blood, I need Jesus
Mix my Wok with some rocks, I need Jesus
Got addictions I can't stop, I need Jesus
My mind a livin' hell, it's hot, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I was sitting in my class when my classmate told me kill myself (Ching-ching)
I said "Very gladly, boy, I'm antsy, so I won't go- (Pew)
Blow the f**kin' trigger, brains stained on my bathroom shelf (Oh no)
Troll like Mr. Bean and massive sadness that's fueling my health
I only sleep when the sun's up, I don't give no f**ks
I f**kеd this sl*t up on a sofa, don't even know her
Diеd for my high school diploma, and [?]
Most of my locals are losers or f**kin' posers (Yeah)
I made six figures in four months and I ain't even drop a song (Wow)
If you wondering why, it's because I'm tryna get strong
Not mentally and physical, every day I'm tryna evolve
My whole family think I'm crazy but name one genius who's not
Y'all screamin' "It's so hard," I'm screamin' because I'm lost
This my only form of therapy, I'm often p*ssed off
Paint my head with his blood, I need Jesus
Mix my Wok with some rocks, I need Jesus
Got addictions I can't stop, I need Jesus
My mind a livin' hell, it's hot, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
Part II: RED PILL! VS. BLUE PILL!
I'm p*ssed off, I'm f**ked up
I took one too much of
This sh*t that I got from this kid at the bus stop
I never forget the first time that I overdosed
Well, I don't remember sh*t, I ended up in comatose
Second time they said they found me lifeless with a bloody nose
Foam comin' out of my mouth, my hand around a bag of coke
Been addicted to pills since I was a young teen
Started off with vitamins, by sixteen I was a Xan fiend
Doin' ketamine in the bathroom and then the bell rings
Gotta run back to class but I feel my legs melting
Every time I see my mama cry, I f**kin' hate myself
I know she got her problems
So why the f**k can I contain myself?
My father got way numb to the pain
Put that man through hell
I wonder if I'll end up heaven, where are the angels?
Well, I have my body rotting, a carcass
I'll even drown myself to make this pain go away for a second
I would give my wealth to hands of devils
Business men that love the detrimental health
The hands of silly sl*ts that destroy me slowly with skills of stealth (Ah)
Imagine your son dyin' in front your eyes, what you doin'?
Could've fell in love and got a wife, f**k, I blew it
sh*t, you wanna kill me, made me cry, f**k he doin'?
sh*t, you wanna kill me, made me cry, f**k he doin'?
Imagine yo' own mama tell you lies
What the f**k is love? 'Cause it's the devil in disguise
Run him in the grave or save him, come help me decide (Yeah)
Pain and sorrow with a welcome mat, I drop aside (Yeah, yeah)
f**kin' kill him
I'm p*ssed off, I'm f**ked up
I took one too much of
This sh*t that I got from this kid at the bus stop
What pill did you take?
What pill did you take?
What pill did you take?
What pill did you take? (What pill did you take?)
What pill did you take? (What pill did you take?)
What pill did you take? What pill did you take?
What pill did you take?
Yeah, my catnip filled with hard drugs (It's me)
And lots of skin care products (Wow)
I just bought me a revolver, the solution to problems (Yeah)
Will end immediately if I blow up this old Honda
And if he not afraid to pull the trigger, told him "Run up"
I can't wait for one of my enemies to blow my brains, f**k that, I'm ready
I was in a bathtub bleedin' out, now I'm with a dirty switch-blade, b*t*h, I'm already ready
I'm in a constant battle with sobriety but still got meds in my belly
I serve fent [?] scale that I walked out with so many
I'm not going to a psych ward again, I'd rather go have an episode (Yeah)
When my doctor told me I'm bipolar, I flex my Lexapro
Two-hundred milligrams Zoloft every day, that sh*t will f**k you, bro
Still cleanin' up the Volvo that I shattered like three months ago
Mother said reality is a [build?] in my own [work?]
But when I would get some money, I'd be happy, now I'm torn
They rip my friends apart, this industry is a dirty whore
I see the devil dancin' and you all want to wear his horns
f**k your feelings, we just wanna hear you rap, Ego
You ain't dropped in four months, you smokin' crack, Ego?
Why you ain't droppin' "MATTER FACT," you know you spazzed, Ego (f**kin' spazzed)
Why you wearin' women's cloths? Is you a ***, Ego?
Every time I see a bottle of pills, I can't help myself (Why?)
Lied to my friends, told 'em I'm sober so they don't feel guilt
Lied to my own damn b*t*h about the amount of drugs I ran
I don't wanna do therapy anymore, that sh*t don't help (f**k therapy)
And f**k the pharmaceutical industry, I'll see y'all in hell
I been hatin' rehab in another f**kin' country
I had no human contact or access to my money
Tear my f**kin' mood out to the [?] country
I'm a beast [?] it's always been f**k [?] (Yeah)
Stick up for yourself or put your sticks up
They caught me lackin' so my **** time to see God
He was sixty facin' fifty in the system
This is what society does, we're the victims
Tired of being bullied so we crop the picture
So now we gon' stomp on his head, like "How this feel, nerd?"
I hope this—, I hope this—
I cannot describe the things I learned on TNT
I refuse to believe in your false reality
Activate your third eye and question the things you see
Made the decision and now I have PTSD
I wake up sweating in panic attacks so I don't sleep
My brain chemistry been out of whack since age of fifteen
I'm damaged from chemicals one of them is 2C-P
I'm running out of options but the truth is now you see
But I chose to run pills so I guess that one is on me (Ah)
Part III: KIWI!
(On God)
[?], I'm gone
Time for [?]
Reflection calms your mind
Reflection calms your mind
Gone, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone
Reflection calms your mind
I reminisce while sitting back with some fine wine
Doin' cocaine, it's a long line
But it's a long night, I'm gon' be alright
I know you got your own problems, girl, I got mine
Drown my problems in some meds, know my mom's crying
I'm her only f**kin' son and I'm slowly dying
This the only thing I got, every day I'm tryin'
To better myself and then to better my own knowledge
'Cause wisdom work more than money when you turn to a prophet
I'm in a state of confusion, every day I won't vomit
I got to the turn the f**kin' album in, no time for sobbin'
But it's hard to concentrate on work when you lost in your conscious
I fell in love recently then I started poppin'
And then I started breaking trust and I f**kin' lost it
Never thought I would fall in love
Wow, I fell in love
Time for [?]
Reflection calls your mind, reflection calls your mind
You don't even laugh at my jokes anymore
I can tell your smiles are fake and your mind is sore
There's a thousand pictures of me all on your camera roll
I know you only get closer when every minute go
I took five trips to L.A. and you know I cheated
And then I tried to hide the Trojans, goddamn, I'm conceited
And I promise, I love you, you just gotta believe it
But actions speak louder than words, it's the real reason
Yeah, that's the real reason
I ain't mean to stab your back, your heart is precious
I was ripped up into shreds and layin' in a stretcher
My therapist even told me that I'd never get better
When I had a seizure in that hotel, you was with me
Hold my hand, baby, at this rate, I'm slippin' quickly
I can't see past 24, what the f**k is 50?
But I love you forever, my guardian angel, Kiwi
Gone, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone
Reflection calms your mind
And I'm sorry the wait, I'm sorry the wait
EGODEATH on the way and I got another tape
Been battlin' crippling anxiety every day
Take six milligrams of Klonopin just to feel okay
Weekly therapy sessions, every day feel the same
I'm tryna tape her off, but sobriety is a problem
When everything you built burns but you still evolvin'
I gotta slow down on the liquor, know my blood is toxic
I miss when my brothers would call me every single day
I'm fallin' in a hole, this is my cry for escape
I know I'm f**ked up but allow me to convey
This is the carols of madness that run through my brain, yeah
Gone, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone
Reflection calms your mind
My genius is genuine love and passion for everything that I do
And towards everyone that I love
It's just often misinterpreted as evil
But I'm not a villain
But I'm no hero or role model either
I-I been stuck in my head with no route of escape
But it's the highest form of self-introspection I've ever felt in my life
I've accepted the truth, the beauty behind my chaos
And trust me, I hate me more than anyone else ever could
I don't think I ever have loved myself and I'm tired of putting on a false narrative that I'm happy
All I do is cause pain and destroy everything I love
And I'm so f**kin' sorry
I love you forever
Part IV: V FOR VENDETTA!
Die, why won't you die? Why won't you die?
Beneath this mask there is more than flesh
Beneath this mask there is an idea, Mr. Creedy
And ideas are bulletproof
Skrrt
Smell that? Another opp dead (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off with his head (R.I.P.)
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds
I don't give a f**k, b*t*h, I'll do this sh*t again (I will)
Smell that? Another opp dead (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off with his head
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds
I don't give a f**k, b*t*h, I'll do this sh*t again
f**k (f**k, f**k)
I just overdosed again (What?)
This my seventh time in the hospital, been just makin' M's
Starting to believe there's a God, if there wasn't, I'd be dead
In and out of rehab so damn long, convinced there's no effect
I'm a leader, not a follower, you'll always be a sheep
I'm not violent, but psychotic and wanna start killing things
I can call a f**kin' army, and have his head severed [?]
Then we mail it to his mother's house if she can feel my [greed?]
Told my family when I die, they better moshpit
.45 made him log off, he didn't block sh*t
I get emails and they wrapped around my mopstick
I been off molly for five days, I'm exhausted
Smell that? Another opp dead (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off with his head (R.I.P.)
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds
I don't give a f**k, b*t*h, I'll do this sh*t again (I will)
Smell that? Another opp dead (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off with his head
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds
I don't give a f**k, b*t*h, I'll do this sh*t again
PART V: - NIGHT BEFORE EGODEATH
Um, when I was younger
My dad used to sing "Slow down, you crazy child
So ambitious for a juvenile"
"You're so strong" what'd he say? "You're so smart
Tell me, why are you still so afraid?"
And yeah, I-I miss him, I miss the relationship I had with him
I miss everything, f**k
Slow down, you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then you're so smart, tell me, why are you still so afraid?
Look, love [?] Dallas
4:47 AM, don't grow up too quick, I wish I couldn't
You're not alone
I had people's careers I made in like two months
To me nothing except a feature and two blunts
And now they slanderin' my name and want me to get hurt
But none of this would be possible if I didn't pick the mic first
Keep your friends close, your enemies tightest
I stay out of the mix, gettin' too rich for the violence
Bunch of pussies jumped and pistol whipped me, learned my lesson
So I can't leave my house without my f**kin' brothers and some weapons, yeah
I had bought tickets for my friends so we'd go to L.A
I gave 'em houses and gave 'em clothes and gave 'em money, bank
And now they throwin' subs at me, but I won't get in the way
They postin' videos on internet, they throwin' me shade
Knowin' they won't ever touch the level I'm 'bout to break
Tired of being quiet, f**k that, I got somethin' to say
Just let the numbers speak, lil' boy, now pick up your pace
The way I'm goin' right now, I'm gon' be one of the greats
Slow down, you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then you're so smart, tell me, why are you still so afraid?
Can't even go to the mall without fans takin' no pictures
f**k being locally famous, I'm paintin' bigger pictures
Pre-writing ancient scriptures and breaking all your traditions
I got a legacy to leave behind when I'm diminished
But I'm nowhere close to finished, hungrier than the beginning
I'm supposed to be on the road tourin' on a sprinter
Instead of sittin' in my bed, drinking hard liquor
And writin' some hard lyrics, hopin' that you all feel it
Yeah, yeah, I hope you all feel it
'Cause even I be havin' trouble looking in the mirror
And realizin' things won't ever be the same, not appearance
And I ain't even have no friends or drugs to help me with it
But I wrote this song sober for a clearer vision
Friends take advantage of my finical positions
I can tell my brothers know because they still my brothers
Tried to put him on the game, but he still stuck up in his system
I had a girl in **** hit me up the other day
I asked her to homecoming in like eleventh grade
She shot me down and spat my heart apart in seven places
And now she ask me to take her out, I said "Okay, bae"
Wow, why I do that?
Comes to validation, always need to f**kin' prove that
I give 'em memories, I [?] to leave alone, I tend to do that
I make 'em fall in love and do the same sh*t that she do back, yeah
Women peepin' the way that I'm movin' differently
They want me to come to their parties, but I'm rich, you see
Think about when they bullied me in high school
Now the same bum-broke pussies say they f**k with me
Oh, and your girlfriend seems to be in love with me
She let me f**k her raw upon your table centerpiece
Sorry brother, I can drop her back, it's no stress
Nothin' personal, your b*t*h is just now my b*t*h
Baby, I can show you better things than he could do
Show you lifestyles you could become addicted to
Debit card swipes, highest fashion avenues
Three-hundred on dinner baby, that's nothing, like what's the move?
Only peace I find is when I roll up in the morning
Wakin' up, sweatin' season from Xanax withdrawals
Got my sh*t together quickly, said "f**k you" to college
Saw my mama cry twice, turned me to a monster
Now I treat her real nice, ordered shrimp and lobsters
And shout-out to the mobsters, my Blood and Crip brothers
That will kill others, without blinkin' they eye
I'm workin' hard to get 'em out and makin' sure that they fine
And R.I.P. to Zecky, fly high, baby, fly
I miss you more every day, I wish it was me instead
All this money, all these women, they don't matter
The void inside my f**kin' soul will forever be damaged
Only solution I see is for my brain to splatter
But I can't kill myself yet, I ain't drop my album
Yeah, I can't kill myself yet, I ain't even drop my album
Slow down, you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then you're so smart, tell me, why are you still so afraid?
Would you please talk about what you refer to as a psychic death
Also called an egodeath?
That's what happens when someone you love betrays you (Betrays you)
Yo', [?]
from around the world California dreamin'
I wanna see everybody jumpin' and screamin'
I wanna see everybody jumpin' and screamin'
Paint my head with his blood, I need Jesus
Mix my Wok with some rocks, I need Jesus
Got addictions I can't stop, I need Jesus
My mind a livin' hell, it's hot, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I was sitting in my class when my classmate told me kill myself (Ching-ching)
I said "Very gladly, boy, I'm antsy, so I won't go- (Pew)
Blow the f**kin' trigger, brains stained on my bathroom shelf (Oh no)
Troll like Mr. Bean and massive sadness that's fueling my health
I only sleep when the sun's up, I don't give no f**ks
I f**kеd this sl*t up on a sofa, don't even know her
Diеd for my high school diploma, and [?]
Most of my locals are losers or f**kin' posers (Yeah)
I made six figures in four months and I ain't even drop a song (Wow)
If you wondering why, it's because I'm tryna get strong
Not mentally and physical, every day I'm tryna evolve
My whole family think I'm crazy but name one genius who's not
Y'all screamin' "It's so hard," I'm screamin' because I'm lost
This my only form of therapy, I'm often p*ssed off
Paint my head with his blood, I need Jesus
Mix my Wok with some rocks, I need Jesus
Got addictions I can't stop, I need Jesus
My mind a livin' hell, it's hot, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
Part II: RED PILL! VS. BLUE PILL!
I'm p*ssed off, I'm f**ked up
I took one too much of
This sh*t that I got from this kid at the bus stop
I never forget the first time that I overdosed
Well, I don't remember sh*t, I ended up in comatose
Second time they said they found me lifeless with a bloody nose
Foam comin' out of my mouth, my hand around a bag of coke
Been addicted to pills since I was a young teen
Started off with vitamins, by sixteen I was a Xan fiend
Doin' ketamine in the bathroom and then the bell rings
Gotta run back to class but I feel my legs melting
Every time I see my mama cry, I f**kin' hate myself
I know she got her problems
So why the f**k can I contain myself?
My father got way numb to the pain
Put that man through hell
I wonder if I'll end up heaven, where are the angels?
Well, I have my body rotting, a carcass
I'll even drown myself to make this pain go away for a second
I would give my wealth to hands of devils
Business men that love the detrimental health
The hands of silly sl*ts that destroy me slowly with skills of stealth (Ah)
Imagine your son dyin' in front your eyes, what you doin'?
Could've fell in love and got a wife, f**k, I blew it
sh*t, you wanna kill me, made me cry, f**k he doin'?
sh*t, you wanna kill me, made me cry, f**k he doin'?
Imagine yo' own mama tell you lies
What the f**k is love? 'Cause it's the devil in disguise
Run him in the grave or save him, come help me decide (Yeah)
Pain and sorrow with a welcome mat, I drop aside (Yeah, yeah)
f**kin' kill him
I'm p*ssed off, I'm f**ked up
I took one too much of
This sh*t that I got from this kid at the bus stop
What pill did you take?
What pill did you take?
What pill did you take?
What pill did you take? (What pill did you take?)
What pill did you take? (What pill did you take?)
What pill did you take? What pill did you take?
What pill did you take?
Yeah, my catnip filled with hard drugs (It's me)
And lots of skin care products (Wow)
I just bought me a revolver, the solution to problems (Yeah)
Will end immediately if I blow up this old Honda
And if he not afraid to pull the trigger, told him "Run up"
I can't wait for one of my enemies to blow my brains, f**k that, I'm ready
I was in a bathtub bleedin' out, now I'm with a dirty switch-blade, b*t*h, I'm already ready
I'm in a constant battle with sobriety but still got meds in my belly
I serve fent [?] scale that I walked out with so many
I'm not going to a psych ward again, I'd rather go have an episode (Yeah)
When my doctor told me I'm bipolar, I flex my Lexapro
Two-hundred milligrams Zoloft every day, that sh*t will f**k you, bro
Still cleanin' up the Volvo that I shattered like three months ago
Mother said reality is a [build?] in my own [work?]
But when I would get some money, I'd be happy, now I'm torn
They rip my friends apart, this industry is a dirty whore
I see the devil dancin' and you all want to wear his horns
f**k your feelings, we just wanna hear you rap, Ego
You ain't dropped in four months, you smokin' crack, Ego?
Why you ain't droppin' "MATTER FACT," you know you spazzed, Ego (f**kin' spazzed)
Why you wearin' women's cloths? Is you a ***, Ego?
Every time I see a bottle of pills, I can't help myself (Why?)
Lied to my friends, told 'em I'm sober so they don't feel guilt
Lied to my own damn b*t*h about the amount of drugs I ran
I don't wanna do therapy anymore, that sh*t don't help (f**k therapy)
And f**k the pharmaceutical industry, I'll see y'all in hell
I been hatin' rehab in another f**kin' country
I had no human contact or access to my money
Tear my f**kin' mood out to the [?] country
I'm a beast [?] it's always been f**k [?] (Yeah)
Stick up for yourself or put your sticks up
They caught me lackin' so my **** time to see God
He was sixty facin' fifty in the system
This is what society does, we're the victims
Tired of being bullied so we crop the picture
So now we gon' stomp on his head, like "How this feel, nerd?"
I hope this—, I hope this—
I cannot describe the things I learned on TNT
I refuse to believe in your false reality
Activate your third eye and question the things you see
Made the decision and now I have PTSD
I wake up sweating in panic attacks so I don't sleep
My brain chemistry been out of whack since age of fifteen
I'm damaged from chemicals one of them is 2C-P
I'm running out of options but the truth is now you see
But I chose to run pills so I guess that one is on me (Ah)
Part III: KIWI!
(On God)
[?], I'm gone
Time for [?]
Reflection calms your mind
Reflection calms your mind
Gone, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone
Reflection calms your mind
I reminisce while sitting back with some fine wine
Doin' cocaine, it's a long line
But it's a long night, I'm gon' be alright
I know you got your own problems, girl, I got mine
Drown my problems in some meds, know my mom's crying
I'm her only f**kin' son and I'm slowly dying
This the only thing I got, every day I'm tryin'
To better myself and then to better my own knowledge
'Cause wisdom work more than money when you turn to a prophet
I'm in a state of confusion, every day I won't vomit
I got to the turn the f**kin' album in, no time for sobbin'
But it's hard to concentrate on work when you lost in your conscious
I fell in love recently then I started poppin'
And then I started breaking trust and I f**kin' lost it
Never thought I would fall in love
Wow, I fell in love
Time for [?]
Reflection calls your mind, reflection calls your mind
You don't even laugh at my jokes anymore
I can tell your smiles are fake and your mind is sore
There's a thousand pictures of me all on your camera roll
I know you only get closer when every minute go
I took five trips to L.A. and you know I cheated
And then I tried to hide the Trojans, goddamn, I'm conceited
And I promise, I love you, you just gotta believe it
But actions speak louder than words, it's the real reason
Yeah, that's the real reason
I ain't mean to stab your back, your heart is precious
I was ripped up into shreds and layin' in a stretcher
My therapist even told me that I'd never get better
When I had a seizure in that hotel, you was with me
Hold my hand, baby, at this rate, I'm slippin' quickly
I can't see past 24, what the f**k is 50?
But I love you forever, my guardian angel, Kiwi
Gone, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone
Reflection calms your mind
And I'm sorry the wait, I'm sorry the wait
EGODEATH on the way and I got another tape
Been battlin' crippling anxiety every day
Take six milligrams of Klonopin just to feel okay
Weekly therapy sessions, every day feel the same
I'm tryna tape her off, but sobriety is a problem
When everything you built burns but you still evolvin'
I gotta slow down on the liquor, know my blood is toxic
I miss when my brothers would call me every single day
I'm fallin' in a hole, this is my cry for escape
I know I'm f**ked up but allow me to convey
This is the carols of madness that run through my brain, yeah
Gone, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone
Reflection calms your mind
My genius is genuine love and passion for everything that I do
And towards everyone that I love
It's just often misinterpreted as evil
But I'm not a villain
But I'm no hero or role model either
I-I been stuck in my head with no route of escape
But it's the highest form of self-introspection I've ever felt in my life
I've accepted the truth, the beauty behind my chaos
And trust me, I hate me more than anyone else ever could
I don't think I ever have loved myself and I'm tired of putting on a false narrative that I'm happy
All I do is cause pain and destroy everything I love
And I'm so f**kin' sorry
I love you forever
Part IV: V FOR VENDETTA!
Die, why won't you die? Why won't you die?
Beneath this mask there is more than flesh
Beneath this mask there is an idea, Mr. Creedy
And ideas are bulletproof
Skrrt
Smell that? Another opp dead (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off with his head (R.I.P.)
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds
I don't give a f**k, b*t*h, I'll do this sh*t again (I will)
Smell that? Another opp dead (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off with his head
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds
I don't give a f**k, b*t*h, I'll do this sh*t again
f**k (f**k, f**k)
I just overdosed again (What?)
This my seventh time in the hospital, been just makin' M's
Starting to believe there's a God, if there wasn't, I'd be dead
In and out of rehab so damn long, convinced there's no effect
I'm a leader, not a follower, you'll always be a sheep
I'm not violent, but psychotic and wanna start killing things
I can call a f**kin' army, and have his head severed [?]
Then we mail it to his mother's house if she can feel my [greed?]
Told my family when I die, they better moshpit
.45 made him log off, he didn't block sh*t
I get emails and they wrapped around my mopstick
I been off molly for five days, I'm exhausted
Smell that? Another opp dead (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off with his head (R.I.P.)
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds
I don't give a f**k, b*t*h, I'll do this sh*t again (I will)
Smell that? Another opp dead (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off with his head
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds
I don't give a f**k, b*t*h, I'll do this sh*t again
PART V: - NIGHT BEFORE EGODEATH
Um, when I was younger
My dad used to sing "Slow down, you crazy child
So ambitious for a juvenile"
"You're so strong" what'd he say? "You're so smart
Tell me, why are you still so afraid?"
And yeah, I-I miss him, I miss the relationship I had with him
I miss everything, f**k
Slow down, you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then you're so smart, tell me, why are you still so afraid?
Look, love [?] Dallas
4:47 AM, don't grow up too quick, I wish I couldn't
You're not alone
I had people's careers I made in like two months
To me nothing except a feature and two blunts
And now they slanderin' my name and want me to get hurt
But none of this would be possible if I didn't pick the mic first
Keep your friends close, your enemies tightest
I stay out of the mix, gettin' too rich for the violence
Bunch of pussies jumped and pistol whipped me, learned my lesson
So I can't leave my house without my f**kin' brothers and some weapons, yeah
I had bought tickets for my friends so we'd go to L.A
I gave 'em houses and gave 'em clothes and gave 'em money, bank
And now they throwin' subs at me, but I won't get in the way
They postin' videos on internet, they throwin' me shade
Knowin' they won't ever touch the level I'm 'bout to break
Tired of being quiet, f**k that, I got somethin' to say
Just let the numbers speak, lil' boy, now pick up your pace
The way I'm goin' right now, I'm gon' be one of the greats
Slow down, you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then you're so smart, tell me, why are you still so afraid?
Can't even go to the mall without fans takin' no pictures
f**k being locally famous, I'm paintin' bigger pictures
Pre-writing ancient scriptures and breaking all your traditions
I got a legacy to leave behind when I'm diminished
But I'm nowhere close to finished, hungrier than the beginning
I'm supposed to be on the road tourin' on a sprinter
Instead of sittin' in my bed, drinking hard liquor
And writin' some hard lyrics, hopin' that you all feel it
Yeah, yeah, I hope you all feel it
'Cause even I be havin' trouble looking in the mirror
And realizin' things won't ever be the same, not appearance
And I ain't even have no friends or drugs to help me with it
But I wrote this song sober for a clearer vision
Friends take advantage of my finical positions
I can tell my brothers know because they still my brothers
Tried to put him on the game, but he still stuck up in his system
I had a girl in **** hit me up the other day
I asked her to homecoming in like eleventh grade
She shot me down and spat my heart apart in seven places
And now she ask me to take her out, I said "Okay, bae"
Wow, why I do that?
Comes to validation, always need to f**kin' prove that
I give 'em memories, I [?] to leave alone, I tend to do that
I make 'em fall in love and do the same sh*t that she do back, yeah
Women peepin' the way that I'm movin' differently
They want me to come to their parties, but I'm rich, you see
Think about when they bullied me in high school
Now the same bum-broke pussies say they f**k with me
Oh, and your girlfriend seems to be in love with me
She let me f**k her raw upon your table centerpiece
Sorry brother, I can drop her back, it's no stress
Nothin' personal, your b*t*h is just now my b*t*h
Baby, I can show you better things than he could do
Show you lifestyles you could become addicted to
Debit card swipes, highest fashion avenues
Three-hundred on dinner baby, that's nothing, like what's the move?
Only peace I find is when I roll up in the morning
Wakin' up, sweatin' season from Xanax withdrawals
Got my sh*t together quickly, said "f**k you" to college
Saw my mama cry twice, turned me to a monster
Now I treat her real nice, ordered shrimp and lobsters
And shout-out to the mobsters, my Blood and Crip brothers
That will kill others, without blinkin' they eye
I'm workin' hard to get 'em out and makin' sure that they fine
And R.I.P. to Zecky, fly high, baby, fly
I miss you more every day, I wish it was me instead
All this money, all these women, they don't matter
The void inside my f**kin' soul will forever be damaged
Only solution I see is for my brain to splatter
But I can't kill myself yet, I ain't drop my album
Yeah, I can't kill myself yet, I ain't even drop my album
Slow down, you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then you're so smart, tell me, why are you still so afraid?
Would you please talk about what you refer to as a psychic death
Also called an egodeath?
That's what happens when someone you love betrays you (Betrays you)
