CORRECT LYRICS
Lyrics : The Biographer
Because you are dead,
I stand at your desk,
my fingers caressing the grooves in the wood
your initials made;
and I manage a quote,
echo one of your lines in the small, blue room
where and early daguerreotype shows you
excitedly staring out
from behind your face,
the thing that made you yourself
still visibly there
like a hood and a cloak of light.
The first four words that I write are your name.
I’m a passionate man
with a big advance
who’s loved your work since he was a boy;
but the night
I slept alone in your bed,
the end of a fire going out in the grate,
I came awake-
certain, had we ever met,
you wouldn’t have wanted me,
or needed me,
would barely have noticed me at all.
Guilt and rage
hardened me then,
and later I felt your dislike
chilling the air
as I drifted away.
Your wallpaper green and crimson and gold.
How close can I get
to the sound of your voice
which Emma Elizabeth Hibbert described-
lively, eager and lightly-pitched,
with none of the later, bitter edge.
c*ckney, a little.
In London town,
the faces you wrote
leer and gape and plead at my feet.
Once, high on Hungerford Bridge,
a stew and tangle of rags, sniffled by a dog, stood, spoke,
spat at the shadow I cast,
at the meagre shadow I cast in my time.
I heard the faraway bells of St Paul’s as I ran.
Maestro. Monster. Mummy’s Boy.
My Main Man.
I write you and I write you for five hard years.
I have an affair with a Thespian girl-
you would have approved-
then I snivel home to my wife.
Her poems and jam.
Her forgiveness.
Her violent love.
And this is a life.
I print it out.
In all of your mirrors, my face;
with its smallish, its quizzical eyes,
its cheekbones, its sexy jaw,
its talentless, dust jacket smile.
I stand at your desk,
my fingers caressing the grooves in the wood
your initials made;
and I manage a quote,
echo one of your lines in the small, blue room
where and early daguerreotype shows you
excitedly staring out
from behind your face,
the thing that made you yourself
still visibly there
like a hood and a cloak of light.
The first four words that I write are your name.
I’m a passionate man
with a big advance
who’s loved your work since he was a boy;
but the night
I slept alone in your bed,
the end of a fire going out in the grate,
I came awake-
certain, had we ever met,
you wouldn’t have wanted me,
or needed me,
would barely have noticed me at all.
Guilt and rage
hardened me then,
and later I felt your dislike
chilling the air
as I drifted away.
Your wallpaper green and crimson and gold.
How close can I get
to the sound of your voice
which Emma Elizabeth Hibbert described-
lively, eager and lightly-pitched,
with none of the later, bitter edge.
c*ckney, a little.
In London town,
the faces you wrote
leer and gape and plead at my feet.
Once, high on Hungerford Bridge,
a stew and tangle of rags, sniffled by a dog, stood, spoke,
spat at the shadow I cast,
at the meagre shadow I cast in my time.
I heard the faraway bells of St Paul’s as I ran.
Maestro. Monster. Mummy’s Boy.
My Main Man.
I write you and I write you for five hard years.
I have an affair with a Thespian girl-
you would have approved-
then I snivel home to my wife.
Her poems and jam.
Her forgiveness.
Her violent love.
And this is a life.
I print it out.
In all of your mirrors, my face;
with its smallish, its quizzical eyes,
its cheekbones, its sexy jaw,
its talentless, dust jacket smile.
