I'm too embarrassed to tell myself
Might need help from somebody else
Suppress all of my negative thoughts
Hide that anything is going wrong
But I'm f*cked up and I know it
Wake up and feel hopeless
Deny that anything is broken
I get good days sometimes, swear to god
It's not like I can't function
But the thought of death is seductive
It's not real, get out of my head
If I'm broken, what do I have left?
It's not real, get out of my head
If I'm broken, what do I have left?
Never felt this lost before
(Haven't felt good for a while)
These roads have signs but I don't know what I'm looking for
(Haven't felt good for a while)
Watch me sink to ocean floor
(Haven't felt good for a while)
I got lead in my head, can't float anymore
(Haven't felt good for a while)
Don't know if I have any friends left
Don't have the energy to tend to them
If it's hard enough to leave my bed
How can I care about anyone else?
(Haven't felt good for a while)
Used to be scared to die
Now I'm terrified
Of my own life
It's not real, get out of my head
If I'm broken, what do I have left?